he's such a liar! i don't know why. and he always lies to me. me?! of all people he chose me to be the one he would lie to. one thing to say to him: WRONG CHOICE DUDE! 'coz i always would find out about his lies. just the other day, he lied to me. how am i supposed to believe him or even trust him at all if he continues to lie to me??? oh when will he ever stop?

i just don't understand. he's the one who's telling me to be honest and open to him. yet he's the one who's not honest or open. i don't know why i care or bother so much. it's just irritating. so annoying.

he's such a big fat LIAR. i want to shout at him, hit him or something just to get this all out. what does he think? that i'm dumb or something. ha? i'm not stupid like him. no way.

is this what he calls ' friends' or 'friendships'?? think again.

there's one thing i want to say to him. 'look. you're the reason i want to leave so badly that i may one day forget you and all the memories of us. hopefully when i come back, we can be friends. real friends. and hopefully you have outgrown your attitude towards me and all you lies. i'll be praying for that miracle.'

Sunday, September 18, 2005 | 6:24 PM | 1 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

like what i said.. a lot can happen in a day.. what more a week.. this past week can quite fast.. it was quite a blur.. put my mind into a whirl.. put my heart in the biggest confusion i have ever encountered..

so here goes..

----> i just realized i didn't have any entries here for june.. made me wonder why.. then i realized i was happy that month.. that made me realize i didn't write when i was happy.. wierd.. i guess i just could write more when i am sad or in pain.. i'll try to write even when i'm happy.. that would be a good change..

---->> how exactly do you let go of someone you really love? how can stop yourself from cryng because of the pain you feel inside? how do you say goodbye to a person who has changed your life? do you kiss? hug? shake hands? or simply wave goodbye? how exactly do you move on?

yesterday there was this concert at my former school and i spent the concert most of my time with my barkada and a few close friends.. i was enjoying the concert until southborder started singing 'love of my life' and 'wherever you are'.. then and there, tears began to fall.. [note: dramatic.. i know.. couldn't help it..] but hey.. i wasn't crying because i could relate to the song.. or because it reminded me of someone.. i was crying of something i realized before them singing the songs.. i was crying for reasons i could not really put here.. [bottomline: it's because of someone..] so i hugged my bestfriend while they were playing the songs.. and i was crying while whispering why.. he just comforted me until i stopped from crying.. he and my friends there.. they were making me laugh.. making me smile.. i eventualy stopped.. and then southborder sang 'rainbow' and my mood changed.. i was back to partying the night away..

at home i just couldn't sleep right away.. my legs and feet hurt.. so did my heart.. i was thinkng about what to do.. do i fight for it? do i run away from it? or do i simply let go? i have decided on what to do.. i'm not going to be saying what it is right now.. but in time..

for now, i'm just learnng how to say goodbye..

[song in mind: i love you goodbye]
[feeling: free]

Saturday, September 03, 2005 | 4:49 PM | 2 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

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