yesterday i went with my friends and got to hang out and spend time with them. of course, there was the time to talk about my personal life concerning my past. i know i'm not supposed to still be talking about it. but i just can't help it. he can't let me go. why?

he has a new life and everything. i have my own life as well. why can't he just return my book and we both will move with our different lives? i just don't get it. there are still alot of things i don't understand. a lot of questions i want to ask. but i will never get the answers. not that i don't want to know what they are but there just is no way for me to find out about it.

maybe i still do have feelings for him. but that doesn't mean i want to get back with him or anything. all i want is for me to live my life without having to think of how to get my book back from him. that book is the only thing that's connecting me to him. aside from our common friends. and our past.

one more thing, why does he make a big deal out of everything? uptil now. no offense to him. but he isn't exactly the person who does what he says. he does the opposite. hay.

all i can do now is want until he returns my book. when? i can never say for sure.

closure? maybe he thinks being 'friends' is already his idea of closure. my idea of proper closure is when he returns my book. and we both move with our lives. coz there's nothing more to talk about. it is all over anyway. we are over.

[song in mind: closure]
[feeling: frustrated?]

Saturday, October 22, 2005 | 5:29 PM | 1 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

this past week has been a hard time for me. i got sick. and i think i still am kinda sick. uptil now. i've had a hard time sleeping coz of my colds. then there's this other matter concerning the debut of my friend. which i totally missed. thanks to my mom.

don't get me wrong. i love my mom. very much. and understand fully what she has been through in her life. but then it's kinda sad that i don't get to enjoy my life because of her. i know she's only watching out for me. i understand that. and even appreciate it. but then i'm a kid anymore. i'm old enough to take whatever consequences there is for my actions. yet still young enough to explore, enjoy and have fun with my life. i deserve it too after all.

i don't understand why she treats me as if i don't know how to make the right decisions. and why she makes it seem that my friends would make me do so crazy wild idea that would get me into big big trouble. oh come on mom! i think i'm smart enough to choose good people to be my friends. and good people they really are. not only good, but great, wonderful and simply the best for me. i can't be any happier.

i know and understand that parents somehow have a say in our lives. but we still need a little of our own space. hay.

[feeling: bad. sick. and down.]

Saturday, October 15, 2005 | 5:24 PM | 4 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

can't believe i spoke too soon. the story's like this..

just last thursday (oct 6), i wrote that i didn't want to see him any time soon. i just didn't want to. but then, a few minutes after saying that, i saw him. i actually saw him.

it's not really a big deal. it's just unexpected. it kinda darkened my day. [so to speak. haha.]

so i just shrugged it off. and decided to forget about it.

atleast that's what i'm supposed to do. ya?

[feeling: surprised by what happened.]

Saturday, October 08, 2005 | 4:53 PM | 3 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

it's already october. duh. i know it's about time to have new memories. lately i've been haunted by bad memories of my past. and i don't like it. i hate it.

so here's what i'm gonna do.

i'm gonna start everything anew. i'm gonna have to change a few things. things that have connections to the past. my history.

i'm closing the door to my dark past. if only i get my book back. [note: oh shit! when is that gonna be?!]

anyway, i just want to say it officially.

haay.

[feeling: ...]

Sunday, October 02, 2005 | 4:27 PM | 1 comments ;
sprinklinq love Y

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