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life's like that

november 28, 2006

i envy my sister.. she's going back to school tomorrow.. how i wish i had school too.. so that i could see my new friends.. eventually see cute guys and my crushes.. hehe.. and actually fill my time with studies.. i really miss studying with books and stuff.. whenever i tell my close friends this, they would tease me by saying that i only really miss math and numbers.. partly true.. coz atleast it lets me have some other things to think about.. waaaaaaaaaaaah.........

[feeling: envious]
[currently listening to: beauty and madness by jimmy bondoc]

Monday, November 28, 2005 | 11:36 PM | 2 comments ;
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sigh

november 27, 2006

what's on my mind right now? to be totally honest.. there are alot of things on my mind.. yesterday and today.. whew.. i still don't understand why fate has make things this way.. things has certainly changed.. others don't go through this.. but yeah.. i shouldn't be comparing my situation to others.. but why.. sometimes i just don't get it.. waaaaaaaaaaah..... i should have some kind of peace of mind.. everything's fine.. eventhough the uncertainty of tomorrow is still there.. everything would turn out okay.. right? *sigh*

there's something i wanna share.. everytime i pray, there's something i pray for.. i'm not gonna say what i pray for.. but somehow something different happened.. wierd but it did happen.. i don't know.. i just don't get it.. i sound so stupid right now.. do i? help, anyone? please.. hahahaha.... argh.... waaaaaaaaaaaah.....

it's times like this when life sucks.. i mean life really sucks.. but you see, i'm okay with it.. and i'm actually loving it.. hehehe..

[feeling: okay?]
[currently listening to: kelly clarkson & bamboo]

Sunday, November 27, 2005 | 8:34 PM | 1 comments ;
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my birthday

i love my birthday this year.. my birthday this year is my best birthday yet. . why, you ask? i'll tell you why..

nov12, saturday - i met up with my friends and got to celebrate my birthday in advance.. it was actually my first to be celebrating my birthday with them.. and it was hot.. hahahahahahaha.. but we were celebrating two birthdays, mine and cass's.. [note: her birthday is on nov11... belated!! love yah sis... muwah! ;p] of course, i got to see my J.. [note: awwwww... he really looks so cute... kilig!!!!!!!!!] what did we do? the usual stuff.. timezone, chattin' at the foodcourt, picture-picture, eating, movie.. ultimate bonding.. as always..

nov16, wednesday - my birthday!!! one great morning.. one beautiful day.. thanks to those who greeted me that day (besides my family, of course):

{cass.. sis love yah!}{joanne..beh love yah!}{kuya edmon}{mary grace}{irene}{colleen}{nikko..miss yah!}{jichael}{mark}{kaloy}{keisha}{mama mich}{chai}{pardz..hug!!}{carl}{gina}{joyce}{drea}{jara}{tasha}{jopee..love yah!}{pau..save the best for last??}{glo ann..besh love yah!}{herald..takecare of my besh always ha!}{mixie..hug!}{sir alvin}{ms sheryl}{harold}{my J..love u much!}

we had mass at around 1215.. had lunch at kenny's.. then dropped by town to meet up with some of my friends (and my J..muwah!).. afterwards i headed home.. we then had dinner outside again.. we ate at friday's.. it was kinda wierd when they found out it was my birthday.. coz they sang me a birthday song.. and i got free ice cream with a candle.. made a wish and blew out the candle! [note: what's my wish? hmmmm.... secret!!] i finally called it a day.. a long one.. but really really fun.. i'm so happy..

but something's bothering me.. my dad's papers for assigment abroad have been finally approved.. after waiting for it almost 1 year now.. why it's bothering me? i'll be leaving for London early January.. this time it's for real.. kinda sad coz i don't wanna go.. but i have my reasons too for leaving.. it's just i'll miss my friends.. badly.. and my J, of course.. haaay...*sigh*

--> my horoscope for today: You have the power to magnetize what you want to you. (Be carefeul what you wish for.) You have marvelous organizational and planning skills. (You're a perfectionist.) You're a thoughtful, considerate person. You educate yourself, and because you have common sense, others often seek your advice. Increased solitude this year helps you learn something new and important.

[note: oh i just love my horoscope!! it's so true... except for the perfectionist part... i'm not sure... hehe...]

nov19, saturday - i met up with another bunch of friends.. namely joy, tasha, jara and drea.. it's been quite a while since i've been with them.. i've missed them so.. we took a picture at pic city.. but we weren't complete then.. it's so sad.. because drea had her pep training.. and it didn't finish until around 4.. what we do? picture, timezone (playing foozball), eating, chillin', talking, window shopping.. i even got to meet up with another friend, irene.. even if it was just for a while.. of course, we got to talk about stuff.. hehe.. it's been a while since i've been with my friends.. haaay.. *sigh*

'til christmas..

[feeling: happy!]
[song in mind: for all my life]

Monday, November 21, 2005 | 10:01 PM | 2 comments ;
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horoscope for today

SCORPIO: You're unclear as to what the correct next action is, mostly your mind is buzzing a million miles a minute. You'll walk into a room, and in the next moment, forget why. A long shower or a short walk is a cure-all.

[note: it is quite true.. know why? someone is bothering me.. he's irritating.. he's confusing.. he's so *ARGH*!!!!!! next topic.. don't wanna talk about it.. *hmph*]

Thursday, November 17, 2005 | 12:18 AM | 2 comments ;
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a routine life

have you ever had the feeling that life is becoming nothing but a routine? doing the same things everyday.. seeing the same people everyday.. and be actually bored.. as in, really really bored.. that's how i feel my life is right now.. nothing but a routine.. there's not much to do anyway.. it's kinda sad.. it gets me to think more often.. but do you know what i find the wierdest part of everything.. i'm actually happy with it.. yeah, there are times i still feel down, sad and hurt.. but then so what?? life, as a routine, feels so safe.. so sure.. coz the same thing's just gonna happen everyday.. duh.. but as a Scorpion, i find it kinda boring.. actually really boring.. i want surprises.. i want adventure.. i want difference.. i want to experience new things.. and just be stuck at home.. as if i got a choice.. ha. i kinda laughing right now.. coz i just feel so wierd.. that life sucks! but i'm happy with it.. it's like i'm happy that life sucks and i'm even okay with it.. do i have regrets why my life's like this? nah.. first of all, this wasn't my choice.. and after all, there's a reason for all of this.. i just got to wait to find out what it is.. i hope i'd find out soon..

[feeling: wierd. blank.]
[listening to: mymp]

Friday, November 11, 2005 | 5:58 PM | 1 comments ;
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Letting Go

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring, it means i can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization that I don't control another.
To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try to change or blame another, I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires but to take each day as it comes and to cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

Saturday, November 05, 2005 | 7:03 AM | 1 comments ;
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long weekend..

here i am to tell you guys about the fun i had this last weekend..

last friday, we [note: we as in family] were packed and ready to go to tagaytay highlands just for the night. it started by having my J to see me off. [note: haaaaay.... he just looks so cute.. uuuuuuuuuuuyyy... kilig!!!] talk about having an inspiration and a smile on my face for the rest of the trip.. well.. upon reaching tagaytay, we took some rest before going bowling.. imagine, i'm not really good at bowling.. but i was able to score a triple strike (XXX!).. [note: hahaha! saya!!] after that, we had dinner and then played billiards.. we also played table tennis.. we went on a sports-trip.. haha! it was ultimate bonding with my family.. and i enjoyed and had so much fun..and of course, there was another thing i enjoyed doing at tagaytay.. boy-hunting! [note: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!] there were definitely alot of cuties.. haaay.. and we always bumped into these group of guys.. i think they were chinese or korean.. not really sure.. hehe.. then before heading home, we passed by town.. and there i had an encounter with someone who has a connection with my past.. so moving on.. moving on.. hehe..

anyway, it was a good weekend.. i had fun.. something i needed.. haha!

[feeling: tired but happy.]

Friday, November 04, 2005 | 2:55 AM | 2 comments ;
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horoscope

October Horoscope
SCORPIO: Re-Joys! Gumaganda ka yata. At ang buhok mo, kinamay lang umayos na. Sabi nga ni Ricky Reyes sa commercial..."para kang nagpa-ispwaaah." Try to take care of whatever well of happiness you have right now. And whatever pile of manure you have, throw it away. Stress is nothing but extra age lines added to your forehead.

[note: i love my horoscope last month.. even i believe it.. i guess it's just true.. i found peace and love.. and i'm finally happy..]

September Horoscope
SCORPIO: Better make sure you have a cellphone that works. You'll be filling up your phonebook with new names and numbers when you meet new groups of people (due to the full moon) this month. If you are considering of joining a new org or club, go right ahead.

August Horoscope
SCORPIO: Extra Challenge. You're facing a big challenge right now. Your patience, faith and self-control will be put to test. Be strong and determined because you will be challenged a lot. I-prove mo sa challenge na yan na hindi ka nya basta-basta maaano. Patunayan mo na above all else, may conviction ka at hindi basta-basta magpapa-talo. At kahit isa siyang challenge na kinakatakutan ng lahat, isa ka namang scorpion na kinakagat lahat.

[note: hmm.. sound familiar.. it's true.. and really a sad thing is happening in my life right now.. *sigh*]

Thursday, November 03, 2005 | 2:52 AM | 1 comments ;
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surveys

What color is your aura?
Yellow: CURIOSITY, FREEDOM, WISDOM
Yellow clears your mind of negativities and engulfs you in cheerful thoughts. It unties you from reservations and fears, giving you the freedom to understabd things. It invigorates your senses and connects you to your mental self, pushing you to be creative in your pursuit of things that will make you whole and appreciate the everyday occurrences in your life.
Personality Traits: happy-go-lucky, optimistic, has nearly boundless energy, good-humored, the life of the party

The Real Deal
Come-As-Chameleon Type
Like the chameleon, your colors change depending on your surroundings--in short, you know how and when to adapt. In a way, your school and home life plus friendships are almost stress-free due to the cool way you deal with situations and people. You have a handle on your feelings, especially if the situation turns for the worse. When you adjust, it's not about faking it, since you only know these certain truths and you practice it: 1) It pays to be polite, 2) Don't judge, 3) Be yourself.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005 | 2:40 AM | 2 comments ;
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let me sleep

have you ever been in a situation where life is so wonderful? as if everything was like a dream? and then we would say things like 'pinch me if this a dream' or 'i don't want to wake up if this is just a dream'.. have you ever been in a situation that made you say or just think stuff like that?

some people say what happens in our dreams are exactly the opposite of what would happen in real life. yet i choose to compare real life and love to a dream. especially when it comes to love. there maybe happy endings/happy dreams or bad endings (should we call that a nightmare?).
falling in love is like being in a wonderful dream. but what's difficult is how the dream would end? if it is a happy ending, then there's nothing much to be said. but there is a bad ending, then things are different.

like me, i just woke up from a wonderful dream gone bad. if it weren't for my friends who woke me up, i would have died. not literaly. well, you know some people died of 'bangungot'. but for someone who just ended a relationship badly would feel that way. and my exboyfriend somehow just woke up from the dream as well but alot earlier than i did. and he just continued on with his life. as simple as that. just wish it was that simple for me too. and so i woke up too. thanks to my friends. so i continued on with my life. with reality. got hurt badly. now so what?

well yeah, that dream didn't end well. but it doesn't mean i don't want to dream anymore. to tell you the truth, i am actually excited. whatever life may bring me. may it be something real or just another dream, it brings me something else. someone definitely better than the one that came before him. so may you guys have the sweetest of dreams. as for me, i'm still enjoying my life right now. i'll just wait for the time to come when i would have a lovely sleep and get to really dream again.

[feeling: sleepy *yawn*]
[song in mind: lullaby]

Tuesday, November 01, 2005 | 4:51 PM | 1 comments ;
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